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Offering services as an Editor/Tutor
(yup, E.T., hi.., I'm Brenden.)
I am experienced with music software and audio production.
Do you have audio or music work or interests? Perhaps you might consider my services.
Sound or video editing and mixing for your project, or helping you learn as a tutor, I could help out.
I could also likely help with small website projects, with ease, and can look into solutions I don’t currently have.
For free or inexpensively, for the right causes and amount of work involved, I would happily offer my skills.
Areas I can assist with:
-compose, edit, arrange, and mix, both for audio and video
-home recording and studio setup advice
-synthesizers, MIDI, controllers, sound physics research, and automation
-signal flow, special FX, audio repair, and DAWs
My career, purpose? I transform self and society contributing my part so all persists, dedicated to contribute to Earth’s life ways with deep purpose and flexing my hope. After hours, I contemplate life, mix music, or make YouTube content about mental health.
Please, believe in growing power by sharing lived experience of psychosis, seizure, pain, and obstruction to rights and justice. Make video, audio, text, image, and “keep thinking about it.” Raise awareness, counter stigma, and ease those suffering in silence. Create strength in adversity. Thank you for your comments, my attention-deserving audience. Yup, it’s the audience that deserves the attention.
nednednerB the Schizophrenic thanks you.
nerBeater wants to recognize the drive and determination of those surrounded by nonsense.
It is the nonsense that spins lost around us. We have so much to do. Aye, continue to do.
By day software gets tested while audio and video lie in a dustless folder inside a dusty computer. Always more work to see, but this one was never a tourist.
nednednerB the Schizohrenic makes video, {‘genres’ = mental health education, philosophy}:
nerBeater makes music, {‘genres’ = glitch hop, hard ambient, word noise}:
On YouTube, YouTube Music, Spotify, Apple Music, Bandcamp, and elsewhere.
I wrote a book, Insights Toward Sanity, about my experience of coming to understand what I know about my having schizophrenia. I do not have publishing rights or make any money on online sales, so please download below for free.
There is one simple way any era looks at such a condition. In fact, once you crack open the nutshell of history, huge cedars with gigantic roots should be sturdy. But why seems civilization so disturbed to have stumped the roots for bunk?
(24-12-2012) Insights Toward Sanity: The Art of Having Schizophrenia
My book explores the onset of my mental health journey through many challenges, by way of poetry, autobiography, and philosophy.
Following a selection of “word salad” poetry spanning across the period of breakdown, I craft a reflective, messy autobiography that reveals at least my interpretation of my experiences.
The image of the book cover above can be clicked. It is the link as below to a shared PDF of the entire book, absolutely free without need for sign in or registering. It can be downloaded.
Please consider reading for free, not buying it anywhere, because I do not earn any royalties from any sales. Please share it if you want.
Insights PDF direct alternate link in an orange button:
In our world there is more desperately ecologically disordered and more psychopathic clear cutting of Cedar old growth, affecting so incredibly the mycelia basis, the networking of Orca, the Eagle, Salmon, and Wolf.
And fingers point toward what I am, the one called insane. I am just caught between two.. or more.. polarities, oppositions, dichotomies, double binds, schisms, simply because I never stopped pointing out that all the connections are incredibly obvious and relevant. Variably quiet, loud, deep, and honest calls to reason, to compassion, to justice, and for all must be asserted.
The words: “nednednerB you are crazy” are a sense or statement that properly needs to be construed as “Our composure unravels into fear as you easily reveal simple thoughts that untie the closure of Henry Ford’s bunk into deeper questions of history than we were told we were allowed to ask.”
Wheels on the bus go round and round!
I wrote the book trying to tie up with thread what hardens, shatters, melts, and reforms any day of the week in the aftermath of destruction for the otherwise gentle course of the 17 year old I was so many years ago.
In many ways, I was confused when I wrote it. At some point I may reprise the work to give new reflections and details not shared then, as I had lots of adversity to work through to make it here.
The last part of the book has essays exploring contemporary ethical and philosophical issues on the way to healing self, society, and nature together. I wrote them during university.
With lucid and/or subliminal prose and poetry, dense and bewildering, from my younger self in a half-confused superposition, I share my ideas, values, and convictions about the nature of mind and matter, communication, and social interaction, showing a commitment to social and ecological justice.
The Freshwater Stream
There are teachings on knowledge and adaptation, on issues of ecological interdependence, social justice, and calls for ceremony and respect toward many beings. Let the waters flow!
Education and Work
At Vancouver Island University, I got into Philosophy, English, Linguistics, and Music courses.
At that time, I wrote an essay published as a peer reviewed scholarly article, encouraged by my Spinoza Ethics instructor:
Spinoza, Deep Ecology, and Human Diversity — Schizophrenics and Others Who Could Heal the Earth If Society Realized Eco-Literacy
Alternate link: (Direct local PDF)
At PAVI (Pacific Audio Visual Institute), in 2010 I received a diploma: audio engineering and music production. I’ve enjoyed editing and mixing since then.
Transfer skills to life. Beyond imperceptible edges of any millennia could possibly contain must persist by entirely different forms of language, societal order and power.
As well, transfer out the paranoid beliefs about the CIA and the relative or proportional flatness of one’s mood, external mental opening flaps, and the Earth to the Moon.
To grips, engines damage every ear, gasoline smells toxic, we must leave as much ore and oil as we can, in the land, land never all ours to waste.
An important comparison to the shape of dollars, made of gold or sand, ice melts, soil’s washing away, not even.
nednednerB the Schizophrenic took time, effort, and I keep learning.
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Gaia Hypothesis: Human – Earth System Relations
Understanding the relations between life forms is crucial for forming and promoting activities which have deep consequences for the survival of human and many Earth systems.
Reducing Poverty Can Reduce Hardship
We need a new Poverty Reduction Strategy, one that works for all who live here.